my tree on days like these

i just wrote this lovely entry about the tree outside, and my power went down 'cause i had the heater on.
alas, that original feeling is long gone now.
some things still remain. i love days like these, the saturday of the thanksgiving weekend. cold outside but not in here. early morning when most people are asleep or just getting up. i have virtually nowhere that i have to be, nothing that i have to do. i have everything that i need right here. there is still sunday before work. it is a free time for free thinking.

this is what i think...

most people want the same thing, it just comes up with different manifestations and names. i think we all want to feel like we're realizing ourselves, putting our best foot forward. we as humans crave the company and approval of others, and ultimately truly care about the well being of the people around us. we want to do our part, and do a good job of it. we are also inherently selfish and will always seek to better our personal situations. we feel best when we feel like we're doing both.

we all do alot of different things. some people run. some people work for charities. some people smoke. some surf, some bite their nails, and some vomit their last meal in hopes of staying thin.
some guys change their oil and keep the receipts. while they are all engaged in different activities, i believe that they are trying to do the same thing...hoping to get to that special place in their mind, that special way of feeling that is o.k. with them. self "pre-approved" good space. when everything is fine, they feel engaged and interested, and that they have something to offer.
balanced, if you will. they want to feel like life is giving something back.

that's what i think.
r.