good day, one and all.

top of the goddamned morning to you, one and all. this is MY blog.
i have been thinking about alot of things today. depression, disappointment, love, hopeful expectations, duty, responsibility. physical endurance or the lack thereof. did i spell that right?

it is saturday, so with great pleasure i inform you that you can do whatever you like. even if you're supposed to work today. it's true. you are free, you just may not realize it. would you like to know what's new?

i have lately been sharing correspondence with an old friend. we lost each other for awhile, but she must have felt my brain squirming, 'cause she called me the other day. she is Robin, and she is magnificent. anyone is lucky to meet her.

Sara is my friend through Blaine. she is talented artist, and recently got a tattoo gun. she's been putting images on everybody i know lately. Blaine just got this crazy walrus that i just love. i want a Sara tattoo, too, but my mom won't let me.

i think my children know that i'm crazy. come to think of it, they have probably been on to me for years. i don't know what their mother tells them, but i love her no matter what.

my daughter is going to college next fall! i want to try and remember to do what i can to keep her on track. it is a wonderful opportunity that i squandered myself. i know that she will enjoy the experience so much. she will be actualized at last. when Allie talks, people should listen and learn.

my main supporter (you know who you are) and i went out for some pills last night. i guess i thought if i went to the pharmacy and could accurately pronounce the name of the drug i wanted, they would give it to me. not so. i was being a little reckless. we got out before anything got ugly. went from there to taco bell. how do you like that?

i have slept in my clothes for at least two days running.

i have a dentist now, but i'm not sure that i trust him. he has pictures of his achievements in his office. him with his plane, him with his hot wife, him in a magical tropical place. hey, wait a minute dude, are you buying that stuff with my money? right?

since i can do whatever i want (don't forget, so can you), i choose to clean up my place and myself, and make ready to spend sunday with my son and daughter. armed with the new found knowledge that they know i'm nuts. they seem to love me anyway. i have low self-esteem right now, i mustn't let them feel that tug. that's the duty and responsibility talkin'.

everyone have a clean, free, liberating day. this is my new "blog". read it.

i am r., and you will come to love me. IT'S HAPPENING AGAIN!